Wow I am so sorry it’s been so long since I have posted on here, but it’s me – I’m alive. These past few weeks have been non stop, full of trials and triumphs, and pretty much pure chaos. Sometimes it can be really hard to stay positive when life gets so busy. I forget to make time for myself to just sit and do absolutely nothing. I miss being able to go home and sit in my bed for hours on end binge watching random netflix series and playing with my dogs outside. Nevertheless I am so unbelievably grateful for the opportunities I have been given this semester and all the friends that have been with me the whole time, equally stressed/busy/sleep deprived. Last week I was having a really hard time staying happy, I had felt feelings that I thought I would never have to deal with again: the feelings of depression, loneliness, and anxiousness. I felt defeated. I put my heart on the line for a position and didn’t get it, got a bad grade on a test, and was unprepared for everything pretty much the entire week. But realistically that’s all college is, trial and error. This week I made it a point to move on from the past and try again: try to lead, try to do better on the next test, and try to be prepared. It is so easy to be knocked down and passively choose to stay down, letting life walk all over you. Recovery is a really long and tiring process and sometimes I just want to hide away for a week and wallow, especially those weeks that test me mentally, physically, and emotionally. Another part of recovery is realizing that hiding from your problems won’t make them go away. Everyday is a new opportunity to be a better version of yourself and sometimes that idea is so hard to grasp simply because you give temporary, external stressors so much power over your day to day life. If you have failed time and time again I want you to reflect on those experiences in a positive light and use them as motivation. Day to day life can be extremely hard sometimes but I wouldn’t be where I was today without the rejections, bad grades, and horrible weeks. Always remember that going through things you never thought you would go through will only take you places you never thought you’d get to.
Self Care with Claire 