Episode 8: Finding Your Purpose

Healing is not linear, this week truly proved that to be true. These past few days have been an all time low for me. I felt that I was back in my place, back under the influence of my mental illness that I thought I beat. Sitting in my room right now I can truly say that I am okay. I don’t feel the heaviness of my illness lingering over me anymore, at this moment I feel that nothing can stop me, I’m so ready to inspire… which is why I’m writing on a random Friday night right before finals. For a long time I didn’t know why exactly I was here, I felt that I was always hurting people and never truly benefitted society. I can now say with the utmost confidence that I was put on this planet to help people. I am here to be the friend that rises by lifting the others, the rational thinker that always knows what to say, and the person that will help anyone no matter the circumstances… those are loaded statements, right? This blog keeps me going, on the days I don’t really feel motivated I like to go back and read old posts to remind myself of my purpose, my why. Over the past few days I have been receiving messages concerning my blog and the impact its having on my peers lives, and my heart melts. You are all so undeniably loved and though you may not hear it daily: your presence is so needed, you are so needed. Sitting in your boring history lecture, you may not understand what the hell you are doing with your life and that’s okay. Your purpose isn’t that boring 9-5 job, its not the college degree you’ve been working towards, and it is definitely not to do what your parents expect of you. You’re here to pursue what you truly love, surrounded by people that inspire and motivate you, in a place that makes you WANT to continue. Take a step back and start to recognize what makes you get out of bed in the morning, find your why. Whether its a person or a cause or anything in between, find your why and pursue it with every ounce of your being, but please don’t stalk anyone! If you are unhappy with where you’re at in life, make an effort and create change. Break out of your same routine: go travel, meet new people, discover the cure for cancer. Stagnation is the enemy of happiness so get out there and make some waves. Also, in case anyone is wondering… I’m making ham and cheese pinwheels so that’s pretty cool.