I hate change. It is truly the epitome of everything that I try to avoid in life. But change is so inevitable so I had to learn to get used to it. Coming back to College Station yesterday was such a whirlwind of emotions. I was so unbelievably excited to be back with my friends but at the same time I was so scared. This semester is nothing like last semester, none of my semesters will be like the other, they will all involve change and I am so freaking scared. College is so weird because you get comfortable finally then they’re like, “Go home for a month, you deserve it”, then you go home and they’re like, “Oh you’re finally getting comfortable at home? Well its time to come back!”. Which is great and all but it creates this whole new level of living in every single moment. Another thing is friendships… you meet these awesome people then you have to leave them and sometimes you pick up right where you left off but other times they simply don’t come back. Unlike high school where you see your friends every single day, college friendships take actual work. You have to communicate and plan and make time for the people you care about because if you don’t then you won’t see them. This new semester also brings more applications and interviews and rejections… scary, right? This school year I am testing myself to go out for everything that I am truly passionate about and I have had the opportunity to experience both sides: acceptance and rejection. In high school I always limited myself because I was “too busy with dance”. But too busy is not an excuse for me anymore, I choose to put my all into every application, interview, and final decision. You know the American Dream everyone keeps talking about? Well I’m chasing the Aggie Dream and I know that is the cringiest statement you have read in your entire life but I love this school with my entire heart and want to be apart of it in every way possible. All of these amazing opportunities are chances for me to grow and learn… to CHANGE! If you want to read more about rejection and all that good stuff you can go read Episode 2 of my blog (selfless promo srry). Finding a new normal can be hard and stressful and tedious but it can also be joyful and fresh and so so rewarding. Put yourself out there this year: go out for an org or a leadership position, make friends with the people in your classes, get organized, fall shamelessly in love with yourself and your friends and your environment. You are here for a reason so get out there and find your “why?”. This was truly the most disorganized rant about how unprepared and scared I am to start the new semester but hopefully this is relatable to some people and brings some kind of comfort and understanding to this time of confusion and newness.
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Episode 2: Rejection
https://selfcarewithclaire.car.blog/2018/09/06/episode-2-rejection/
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